Accepting the love

So last week I finally sat down & cried. A good old sit at the table with my head down gut wrenching sobs cry. What triggered it? Perfect strangers want to clean my house - empty my cat box - even fold my laundry - for free!  This organization - Cleaning for a Reason - puts cancer patients in contact with local cleaning companies who donate their time to cancer patients.  Perfect strangers. Me.  

Now most people who know me know I am independent; I believe I may have even been called stubborn on occasion. So accepting the love, kindness & generosity from my friends & family, and yes, even perfect strangers, has been one of the  biggest struggles for me in this journey.  Even though I would absolutely anything for those I care about, its difficult to accept it in return.  So thank you & bear with me.

I could't find an "Accepting the Love"recipe, but I think this recipe for Italian LOVE cake is pretty darn close:

Ingredients:

1 (18.25 ounce) package chocolate cake mix 2 pints part-skim ricotta cheese 3/4 cup white sugar 1 teaspoon vanilla extract

4 eggs 1 (3.9 ounce) package instant chocolate pudding mix 1 cup milk 1 (12 ounce) container frozen whipped topping, thawed

Directions:

1.	Prepare cake mix as directed on box. Pour batter into 9 x 13 x 2 inch greased baking dish. Set aside.
2.	Combine ricotta cheese, sugar, vanilla, and eggs. Blend well. Spread mixture evenly over the top of the cake batter.
3.	Bake at 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) for 75 minutes if using a glass baking dish, 90 minutes if using a metal pan.
4.	Blend pudding mix and milk until thickened. Blend in whipped topping. Spread over cooled cake.